Neferion Planet
Friday, July 11, 2003:
Ok so lets see here, today is friday the 11 well actually more like saturday but yea its very late or very early! So anyway what I am trying to get at is I'm leaving in a week's time, actually just a little under a weeks time... So if anyone wants to do anything with me just let me know ok...? If you want to call but don't have my number its 502 3131 I'm not giving u the area cause there might be some freak's out there that don't really know me you know? yea that's right i mean you punk!!! Anyway in South Africa my number will be like 714 5149 or something but you need the international codes and you can just ask me for that if your really going to call.
Lately I'm just chillin with my brother, playing some Ps2 thanks brett if your reading this. Otherwise not much is happening, i went to david's house last night, that was fun up to a certian point. I think i'm going swimming tomorrow night, maybe sneak into my pool if anyone wants to join me. Other than that i don't have much to say so I will talk to you all later.
~ J Fury( isnt that a cool name)
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Juan // 9:19 PM
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Monday, July 07, 2003:
i dont think i talk about pirates enough on these live journal entries... PIRATES RULE , my brother is also here so let the pirate schinanigans role... U know what's a good song ... Konstantine (thanks kristy) anyway its really long but very good, are u done downloading that yet amanda?
Ok so now ill be serious for a bit.. it's holidays so im not really gonna sit here and talk to you about my day ok? Cause all my days involve a lot of sleeping eating and staring at a wall for hours :> yea so my brother is here, brett left me and so did chrissy and on top of that AND THIS IS FREAKING IRRITATING, David the PIRATE and kathy went and chilled somewhere and u know what david didn't even tell us... he kept it a secret man how could u, i hope u read this cause ur the cause of me not talking to you yea that's right!!!
Let's see oh my brother has flu so i don't know if you all will get to see him if you wanted too... and yea see nothing else to say, brett gave me his playstation thats pretty cool right? I stay up late at night for some unknown reason... and talk to people so yea thats kinda what im doing at the moment
One last thing im leaving for south africa in like 11 days!!!
love juan
Juan // 9:00 PM
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Sunday, June 29, 2003:
those memories keep me
awake, i long for them
always, missing you i cry
Do you remember the good times?
Sleeping for 2 hours, waking for church
James asking for food? Good times
This isnt a poem
This isnt a song,
this is just a tribute
a bookmark, to a time
to the best time of my life
Juan // 11:18 PM
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there used to be a poem here
but apparently it was to BLUNT
ok no wait amanda has no idea what is is about MOR HAR HAR
so ill post it
Could it be
that i have never known love
that my mind is a liar
giving me false elusions?
Could it be
that i could have you
love you or hold you
that my dreams are false prophets?
Could it be
that you like my delirious mind
the smile it produces
or is my thinking far fetched?
for more poems... ill post my old ones go to my other site MOR HAR HAR. I hope that gets u there ( : oh but dont go there yet cause i still need to do it, which im to lazy for so ill do it tomorrow
Juan // 10:12 PM
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So just on hols at the moment... Spending way to much time at this site, just doing some art and stuff, at the moment i dont have to much if u want to check it out search for neferion or go here. I'm going to try write some poetry but i want you all to understand something first when i write poetry i over exadurate, i say stuff i mean to a small degree and often about people i dont know very well, so don't take it personally if you think its about u which it very well might be, just ask me about it and ill explain...
(oh i just read this really cool poem so if this is all weird u know why, im a copy cat)
Dreaming , i find peace
you are there
your warm smile shaking
the very way i think
I find myself smirking
i dont smile often
but i smile when
i speak to you
I will never have my dream come true
never find your eyes
looking into mine
like darkness longing for warmth
ur smile is my breathe...
Juan // 9:57 PM
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Tuesday, June 24, 2003:
I changed the grip on my tennis raquet today, something that i don't do everyday but something that brings back memories, lot's of memories. So lets see... what's happening you say? (lol not that anyone is saying that cause no one reads this) but ill tell you what's happening. This is what's happening. It is tuesday night, I am sitting in front of my pc, thinking; constantly thinking of stuff. Lately due to no school i have been hanging out with crazy kids an aweful lot. It's cool and all, and i love some of the conversation's i have, but the feeling's i feel aren't all that cool and it reminds me of a time now past so i will not bring it up, but some of you wise ones out there might remember that time when i was destraught and did not know what was happening in my life, all because of one person...
So anyway, girls are always problems have u noticed that, no matter how much Daniel and James preached that to me i would not believe them, i thought that i knew better than they did, that they just didnt see something that i could see. I was wrong, oh yes i was very very mistaken and now I ask them forgiveness for thinking them wrong when in reality it was me who was mistaken. Don't I kind of sound like MOJOJOJO? lol anyway, and no i don't watch the powerpuff girls. But back to the point. I'm sorry guys i was wrong and you were right.
Tonight i asked kathy the all important question, and the answer was as i suspected. It is probably not the question you guys think i asked because it seems that some people might think i like kathy (in that way) but in reality i don't think i do. But that brings me to another conclusion that i don't think i like any girl, which brings me to the ultimate conclusion that i don't think i really ever liked a girl all that much. I mean don't think I am gay because you would be very mistaken, i find woman attractive and i really cant even see why woman find men attractive... But back to the point. The point is i think I just mistake lame feelings for something greater, which makes me even stupider that i once believed. Now i think im really really stupid. And even now i think im writing this in the hope that someone might read it and think, YAY he is cute or something like that(and by someone i mean a specific person, not some random girl, and no david i don't mean your GF, which leaves only one person yes? Good) so in conclusion i think i just get carried away with all this gf trash, but even when i say that i wish that i could impress this girl but i know i wont, do u guys understand what i mean? If u do can you help me out, do u have any advice? please? i would really apreciate it from anyone that reads this, it makes no difference whether i know u or not, whether ur daniel -who will probably say girls are from the devil- or if ur the girl im talking about.... it makes no difference.
Um yea that must have been a really lame weird LJ but lately im kinda random so that leaves me with only one more thing to say
PIRATES RULE(my brother is coming soon, rape and pillage me maties, ho ho ho with a bottle of rum!!!)
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Juan // 8:26 PM
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Sunday, June 22, 2003:
yea so this is the second time im going to write in this STUPID thing , anyway what i was saying is how boring and usual my life is, i think im going through a lame time or something butnothing seems fun at the moment, what i need is something new something fun and exciting, it can be a gradual thing or instananious but it needs to happen soon or start happening... anyway i wanted to write a poem, havent done that for a while but i have no idea what to write about...
i can try to show you how i feel
through things i say when you are near
but it can never be happiness you see
that feeling is lost forever to me
You think i mean a lot to you
A great friend i am, always, whats new
A great friend i have been to thousands of you
And still a great friend i am to you
Do you ever wonder why i cry?
why i care and bleed and want to die?
I cry because you just dont have a clue
and this poem, this voice can never reach you
(mmm sorry guys that poem sucked, must sound boring and trivial to u all)
ill talk about my week a bit later, i dont really feel like it now
;-c
Juan // 8:30 PM
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Sunday, June 15, 2003:
Yea so yesterday...
I woke up at like ten with a phone call from kathy, we decided to go to the soccer game the night before but i hate waking up early so we were late, and also the quiet times with weird noises on the phone didnt help matters. So we finnally get to the fields (me, david and kathy) and the game is long over and all thats left is amanda P, so we talk to her for a while and then decide to go back to my house, chilled there for a while before dave and kathy left...
Later on in the day, i went to go look at cars with my mom, so we go and we also stop by the house which is coming along nicely and then after that i tell her this. "Well mom we are close to the soccer fields where Amanda and bridget are playing their second game, you want to go?" She agrees and we are off. Now there's things i don't really want to say much about this because i dont know how many people read this but if u do and u want to know exactly what happened just ask me...
basically i had a really good time because of a small little thing, it made my whole day cool which was really good, anyway so i go home and get a call from amanda, they wanted to come swim, i call brett cause apparently he called me and he said he is up for swimming too but first i had to go to dinner with my parents which was really nice cause i was really hungry. Anyway got home and Amanda, chrissy and brett are already there. So we go to the pool, we swam and sat in the jecuzzi (sorry cant spell) and after than we went to the sona(again dont even wanna try), anyway it was all very relaxing. Went home took a shower and then we went to kathy's house, only for a short while though, went home at 11 watched some tv until my eyes fell shut and went to bed....
all and all a very good day
All girls should play sports, that way they wont have any aggression left for us...
cia
Juan // 1:26 PM
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Saturday, June 14, 2003:
SO let's see, i always randomly forget to do these inserts and i dont have a domanatrix telling me to update them because she was gone for a week on some military camp(dont ask me). My last week of school... how can i put this, im physically no longer a child , mentally im a three year old : 0 and my sould will always be young,,, so this week sucked because i wish i could stay in school forever, i know you guys probably dont feel the same way but this is me...
Other than that my week was ok and today was cool but I'll get to that later. So monday and tuesday i just chilled at school the WHOLE TIME because i had this project to do anyway i did most of it but it still brought my comp grap design down from an A to a B which really sucks. The other two days i just did some finals, i got really depressed but i had a chat with rio, dan and later james and today paul , so yea it was all good i guess. So anyway the was friday soon which meant no school, i slept late and MAN DOES THAT FEEL GOOD, u know usually when u do that ur like im so glad its the weekend or holidays well imagine this : Wake up...."ah man i love the weeke.. hold on I LOVE MY LIFE" yea thats right its an amazing feeling. So after that i was like so what to do with my life, and i did nothing the whole day, yea thats right NOTHING but i think thats when i spoke to Rio and Dan but not much else... and then that night i went to a party at kelley's it was cool saw some nice people, AMANDA kinda did something stupid though but its all good...
Today was cool but another insert will tell u about it all.....;-)
HAVE A FUNKY DAY
Juan // 8:40 PM
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